I have been thinking a lot about how I hold on to hurt and
disappointment that has happened in my life.
I think of myself as predominately a positive person. However I seem to have some baggage or hurt
that I hold on too for too long. For
me I seem to categorize the hurt into two types, family and friends and
acquaintances in life.
What I have found true for me is that I seem to put more weight
to the family hurt. I think what is
worse is for some reason I seem to hold onto the hurt baggage longer as
well.
Because I work in the aviation industry my mind thinks about bags in a probably different
way than most people. I have done my
fair share of loading suitcases in my life. When I travel currently I have a huge big suitcase, I love how much it holds. It is able hold enough cloths for about a 18 day trip without having to do any laundry. When it is fully packed this thing is so heavy, but it has a handle and
wheels to pull it and it is manageable though.
In life my suitcase to hold my life’s hurts is also similar
and I sure can pack lots of hurt and disappointment in it. Like my real
life suitcase it is not divided, I just stuff and stuff things in until the
zipper barely closes it. There is no
order to it so if I need to find something everything is going to be pulled
out.
My point to this analogy is about a year ago I was flying
home and claimed my bag in JFK I noticed that one wheel had been broken was not working
well. I needed to walk about 5 blocks
to our office to get to my car to head home after a long trip. About half way to the office the wheel
finally completely fell off. So I had to
carry it by the handle a few blocks. It
was not bad because it was really light and I didn't really think anything of
it. So for a year I have been using
this suitcase and I works well, I do
most of my travel in a car so I don’t need the wheels to work on it, until my
one of my last trips. I was on the
west coast for about 3 weeks and then on the east coast for a while. So you can imagine I packed that suitcase
until it was over bulging! So much so
that I would not fit in the trunk of the Camaro that I was driving in
Seattle. I had to put it in the front
seat. I really didn't think much about
it leaving at first because the plan was to ride our own planes so it wouldn't be
a issue with weight and we are always brought out to the planes so I would not
have to carry it far. On the way home the plan changed I ended
up having to fly a commercial airline back to JFK to where my car was. When I got to pick up my suitcase at the baggage carousel all I could
think of was how far I was going to have to carry this heavy bag and my way
heavy backpack that I used for a carry on.
I am pretty strong person but I was really not looking forward carrying
it. I struggled with the bag to get it
on the air train and off to the Federal Circle. My only hope was that there would be someone
in our Operations Dept. could come give me a ride.
However it was midnight though and the likelihood was not in my
favor. I was so ever thankful when I made
the call and Pleasant answered the phone and was able to come get me. I was lucky this time but may not be the next
time, so I am in a hunt for a new suitcase.
Like my real life suitcase my suitcase for my baggage needs to be upgraded as well. My old suitcase has gone
through my life and done well for me, but it is worn out. I also want to down size it to a manageable
size, this means I need to go back through my life’s hurts and start discarding
to fit my new suitcase. It is scary for
me to go through all of the old hurts but I have been carrying around way too
much for way too long . How is your
suitcase? Is it overfull like mine?
