Today I find myself sitting outside on the front porch of my home away from home enjoying the great weather. The sun is out with hardly any clouds and a little bit of a breeze to keep is at a very comfortable temperature. It is so calm and peaceful day, there is lots going on in town today but I just feel like sitting here and just taking in the world. There is all different kinds of bird on the lawn getting worms and bugs for their babies, and there 2 rabbits that are coming out of the hedges eating the grass. I enjoy the calmness of it all.
One of my favorite parts of staying in New Hope is the Friday night fireworks in the summer. Last time I was here they were just going to start them and the river was too high so they canceled the show. I guess I am really sentimental about the whole area and what the fireworks represent to me here I think.
I’m not one for really talking about personal things mostly because I really have a hard time getting my thoughts across clearly. I will try though and tell you how I feel about this situation in my meager writing skills. I see the New Hope fireworks as a freedom for me. It represents the end of the old and unhappy person and the beginning of a new and very happy person. I remember the 1st time that I so wanted to see them I was laying flat on my back in bed last summer recovering from surgery. There was no way I was going to get out of bed at that time to see them. However the following week I was feeling much better. I was not able to walk to well so Tina and I drove downtown Lambertville to find a parking place early. When it got closer we got out of the car we walked down by the river to watch them. I still remember the pain standing waiting for them to go off. It too all I could do to stay standing waiting for them to go off. It so was worth it though, I can still remember all the emotions and how I stood there with tears coming down my face. It was a very powerful moment for me. During that time Tina and I got to spend two weeks of uninterrupted time. It was so special to get to reconnect with her in a new and different ways we have never done before.
Almost a year later I still find myself here in the New Hope area, staying here when I’m working in NJ. Last night I got to see the fireworks. I watched them from the bridge this time, was way easier to walk downtown from the B&B this time. J The fireworks were shorter this time, but still very wonderful. I was hoping I would be strong and not get all emotional but I couldn’t hold the tears of joy back though. I look back on the last year I am such a happier and better person then I ever thought I could be. I could never have gotten this far though if Tina was not so supportive spouse. Thank you Tina!
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