Out with the old and in with the new!

Well tomorrow will be a week sense I was notified that I was being laid off.   Yesterday at midnight was officially my last day L   I really have gone through a huge amount of emotions that I never figured I would have.   I was shocked, in denial, mad, hurt, abandoned, heartbroken, sad, used and so on.

One of the things that I really didn't expect is that Evergreen has really defined who I am as a person.  Now I feel like I need to redefine who I am, it is kind of scary but also way cool too.   I feel like I am in uncharted territory for sure.   I find that I’m in a new house that I have hardly spent time in.  A new town that I really have not explored and now no job. It all intimidates me, Evergreen has always been that constant in my life and not its not there.  

One of the things that has really helped out is that I have had some quiet time to myself.  Tina and the girls went to PA to see her mom for Christmas.  So I have had the house to my self for a few days now and it has really given me some quality time to process things.  

I am excited that I have the opportunity to redefine myself and can make some changes to myself.  I think I need to take stalk in what in important to me in life and head in that direction.  On Christmas Eve I worked my last plane for Evergreen International Airlines.   I was worried that I would get all emotional; being the waterworks had been flowing up until then.  But surprisingly it was just like any airplane turn that I did in the past.  It was very controlled on my part and smooth running with no hitches.   I pride myself on always doing the best I can do and on time departure at all times if I can make it happen.  My friend took this photo of me as the plane was departing.

I am scared and sad that this is the end of this road.  However I am also excited at the thought of what the future will bring!

Broken Heart and unemployeed

I am venturing onto a new era in my life.  On the 26^th  of this month will be my last day working for Evergreen International Airlines.   This is only the 2^nd time in my life that this has happened to me.   The last time it happened was after the summer ended when I was working for Alaska Airlines close to 20 years ago. I have to admit I am a bit upset at how things transpired.  The company waited until the last flight out of Miami to tell me on the 21^st.   I had spent all week working morning and night flights with minimal sleep and only to get told you’re done.  I feel hurt and broken, I love the job I do, and I love the company I work for as well.  Next August would have been 10 years with them.

I find myself in an odd position, I had promised myself that if I ever got laid off that I would not go back into the aviation field and try something new.   I find this pretty scary because at this point over the last 20 years I have really only have worked in the aviation field.  

  

I wonder if this is a way for God to push me into a new direction.   I find that I get in this comfortable zone and I really don’t want to move on.   I don’t want to be out of my happy zone!  So where to go now is the question, should I finish school, move over to another airline?   It is interesting how life brings you new and different choices. 

Working for the Evergreen has always been my comfort and constant in life through many different moves to different cities and especially through life’s changes.  Now I find myself surrounded by all new and no constant at all, it feels so overwhelming right now.    

Planes and Wedding Dresses

Well I have been crazy busy sense my last post.   I left Miami and stopped a few days in Savannah GA on the way home to work 2 planes.  

I got home for 5 days and back to Miami for a day and back home to catch a plane in Charleston.   I have driven over 7,000 miles on the rental car sense the end of October when I rented it. The last 2 weeks I have had the opportunity to work a the MCC Food bank as I was passing through going home.   Seeing the huge need for food in Charleston makes me so blessed that I have a job!

Tomorrow I will get to go the church that the family has been going; I’m excited to see the church service.  Not sure how they will be with Tina and I though, they kind of seen a bit conservative.

I will head back to Miami after church for a week of the Christmas rush.  I don’t think it will be too bad we will have a plane in the early morning and in the later evening.   Last year I was working in Minneapolis and the way the planes were coming in we were only having 4 or 5 hours in-between and you had to decide between sleep or eating.

Today Tina and I took Brenna to shop for a wedding dress.  I was not really sure if we were going to find the dress of her dreams but sure thought that we could start looking anyway.  She tried on several but it was the 3^rd one that caught her eye.   I just loved how her eyes lit up; you could tell it was the one for her.   I think this was the easy part, now the work will come in planning the wedding though.   Brenna has decided that she wants a fairly small wedding and mostly inviting immediate family members.  We are thinking of having it at my 2^nd home as well to make it special.

A bit lonely.

This trip has seems like it will never end and I really have not been gone too long.   It may be because I will only have had 6 days off this month and traveled most of them.  I think for me though is really being lonely had hit me the hardest.   When I traveled to PA and stayed at the Inn everyone there is more than a fiend they are like my 2^nd family.  Traveling down here to Miami I have really not had time to meet that many people.  I have been so fortunate to meet this cool person Jules that is down here for a year.  She came over the other day and it really helped so much with the loneliness.  Sense we have moved to the new town I have only stay at the new house 3 night and they really weren't full night either because of traveling.   I guess I feel like I don’t have a place to call home yet?  At some point after the 1^st of the year I should have more time home and can start to feel like I belong there.   Being gone as much as I am I really am concerned about finding and meeting friends.   I am blessed with having my spouse and 2 children at the house so there is that comfort.

Yesterday morning I got to put a faces to some voices that I have been hearing when I was in my hotel room.   These people that are staying next to me are so loud!   The husband and wife are always fighting, bickering and such.  I was down having a late breakfast in the lobby and these people were waiting for someone.  I thought I recognize the guy voice but really not too sure.  It was a pretty good size group of people and you could tell they were family.   Then this lady comes down and just starts in at this guy, screaming at the top of her lungs right there in the lobby.  He starts yelling back at her; yep they are the mystery people staying next to me that yell all night long at each other.  I can only speculate on how long they have been married, but given their age it seems that they have been married probably for more than 40 years.  The way the family responded really indicated that this is a normal thing on their part.   I think every marriage has some dysfunction; I am so happy that Tina and I are not like that though.